Being honest with yourself

I struggle with being honest with myself.

I have been too busy trying to be somebody else. Trying to be who I thought everyone else wanted me to be.

Listened to their music, dressed the way they did, watched what they watched, ate what they ate. Looking over my back, hoping no one noticed that I was a fraud.

I can look back and see that I was sick then, and that I don't have to be anyone else. I can do what I like to do, be friends who I want to be friends with, and be honest with myself and others. And the relationships that pop up are pretty amazing<3

I still second guess myself often, but am getting better at not. Because as long as I keep things clean on my side of the street, its none of my business about what others do to or think of me.

Learning to trust is also something hard for me. But I will never give up, because I love life too much now.