Life is a beautiful struggle

Macklemore "Life is a beautiful Struggle". In his song, Make the money, if you look past the lyrics. This is how I view the song. A story about someone who was stuck in addiction. And how we focus on money, as a means of power and happiness. Putting so much pressure on himself that he could not be free. Until he could let go.

I listened to him at the end of my addiction phase. Realizing, and know knowing - That judging someone with an addiction, shunning them, and forcing them to stop,will not work. They need to be ready, I needed to be ready.

Than after you put the addiction down, you have to deal with the pain, the past, everything you have been running from. "I had to face the man in the mirror so I could learn how to love him"- Because most people, including me, couldn't face myself in the mirror. It was just too hard. To face reality, after running from it for my whole life.

 And also being aware that you have to remember where you came from. That you are no better than they are. You are no worse than they are. You are equal. Stand up tall and high, and teach society - and the younger generation about the real world. The dangers, and how they can make better decisions. Also letting them know, I have been there, and am no better than they are. Spread the word all over the place.

I have been through hell and back. But I am no better or no worse than any other human being in this world. That is what God has taught me.<3

I had a very amazing friend, that God placed in my life. We have been through a lot together. And remained friends. Which is a huge blessing. She stuck with me through the good and very bad. She held my hand in the darkness, when no one else would probably be able to stand it. She inspired me, to do the same for others. It was her unconditional love/which was God, who allowed me to take those steps into recovery.

Ever since I have been in recovery- When i chose to open my eyes to the blessings, I see how perfectly construed things are - Even at the worst of times. Sometimes I have to wait out the storm, before I can see the blessings. Its all God for me - He does the work.